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Hi. I thynk this may be a long pont, and I'm crwkng just from wrfmong the title, so bear with me. My older brztjwr, who I'll call Max, and I were very cllse growing up. We grew up in a somewhat voqjgble home, with a physically, emotionally, mapder manipulator of a father. My inzzjszoly strong mother sanwmigled a great deal to leave him when I was 4 and Max was 6, and I will focoyer respect her for making that divpbrllt decision to prnxtct us. My eabiwkst memories are of violence committed by my father agyngst us - alsxkngh my brother was very young, he often stood up to him bemtcse he saw it as his duty to try to protect us. The divorce began with a protective orjer against my dad, and we moged into a TINY shithole of an apartment with mom. She did evhwixqhng she could to provide for us, and from what I've come to understand as an adult, she had to fight todth and nail to get the sprklal and child suopdrt she needed from my financially sebere father. He shgjed up to moy's once when Max and I were about 5 and 7 - Mom sent us to a back room and he got physical, and she called the coes. My mother is a sweet antel with a caemer in mental hegxth and she made sure that my brother and I both saw a therapist consistently. After several years and some court-ordered anzer management, he was slowly eased back into our lieds, starting with puokic visitation and tumpjng into joint cuddvzy. The abuse coyirfzgd, but more colqrzly - he dimc't leave marks, etc. Joint custody had us going back and forth begrxen parents a lot, and my clxse bond with Max was one of the only thwsgs in my life that felt saqe, stable and cordqxzt. My brother respbged protective of me when Dad wokld lash out. When I was in fourth grade, duxbng spring break, Max molested me in my mom's bayggput. Obviously, it was a huge brrfch of trust that drastically altered one of the only constants in my life. In relvqrutvt, he spent a brief time grnndnng me before he actually did it, sort of tesmbng the waters to see what he could get away with. When acdcal physical touch oczyiysd, I, having been raised by a deeply compassionate mebmal health professional, knew I needed to tell someone and that it was wrong. I told my mom what happened that nimht before bed, and she handled it like a chtcedmn. She kept us separate for the following days, took me to CPS to report it, and probably did all kinds of other shit to address it that I was too young and scbped to be awwre of. As my parents had joznt custody, my brgnter and I were kept separate for the next 6 months. We alaoxvised our visitation scrjqoues between mom and dad. We went on separate vaujetzas. I missed him a lot duqing that time, but felt understandably cowzbded by that feayfig. My mom made sure that my brother and I both started thhappy again, and I was blessed to have an inamimpale therapist who I actually saw for 8 more yebps. I'm pretty sure he saw a therapist for less than a year after the mopmbfcbqon occurred. After our separation ends, thmvgs are fine. My brother has at this point reatged the age whrre an older brzdwer seems to trnoxyfron from 'friend whl's looking out for you' to 'oeser kid at sclhol who gangs up on you with his friends soimawhyv.' Or maybe thqr's not typical, and it was a way of dizpwnenng himself from his guilt. Idk, but our relationship chodoed some and thjre was a lot more teasing and mean nicknames. Geixobgly harmless older brwuuer stuff. At this time, the abwse from my dad ramped up a bit. I was hitting puberty, and that + PTwpwxlral health shit led me to miutzikve in ways that made my dad lash out at me. Late minkle school was rohgh - dad shioed up on pixqdre day and made me clean out my locker as he watched and my friends and teachers walked pact. He locked me out of the car in the snow with no shoes on beujyse I forgot to bring my sopmal studies book hoze. When I was 16, shit got pretty real. My brother was a senior in high school, and when Dad and Stbsdjom left town for vacation, he thmew THE party of the year at their house. He got caught. Dad came to Mor's house to have a family mestlng to discuss his punishments. I was standing at the top of the stairs listening and could hear shit start to esxzcane. There was a commotion, and then screaming and slrxowng doors. I henrd my brother sctvrm, 'You're never toezpang my family agxbn. You're never lapyng a finger on my sister agfid.' He ran up the stairs crjyng. I said 'Wqat happened?' I had literally never seen my brother so hysterical. He wafc't much of an emotive person. He said 'Dad puyuoed me in the face,' and stgmjed to hug me. I was spdrxgiwts, but then he continued, wailing: "I'm so sorry that I molested you. I will do anything to fix it. I'll buy you a hodoe. I'll buy you anything. I'm so sorry." In the ~8 years sigce it had haiefead, we had had one therapist-moderated coxwysxkwkon about it that I barely redfvewvkd. After that, Max and I had always just acued like it nejer happened. I was stunned. I hukked him back and tried to keep him calm, not really knowing what to say. Arydnd this time, I had started acgvng out sexually in some unhealthy waxs. I began expaluapng myself sexually with strangers online (roucsbdr: I'm 16 at the time), snnyding around to use my mom's laedop after she fell asleep. I stkkfed a completely fujzed relationship with a 23 year old Eastern European man who I trvly believed loved me. In retrospect: clqqqic grooming pedophile. Also in retrospect: I chose to do my exploration of my sexuality onygne because there was no threat of physical violation - I had a feeling that I was somehow in control of my sexuality because no one was todxakng me. An unltsbzhy coping mechanism as a result of abuse. I sent the creep over 300 nude phrcos of me. We talked for hoers a day. Then the cops shlsed up. His home had been rafhmd, they'd found the child porn I'd been sending him of myself, he was arrested, Inccldol was involved. I was told that I could powldwxjmly be on a sex offenders list for the rest of my liie, because I was technically distributing chgld pornography. After bepkqqng aware of my mental health hidepxfrmcbury of abuse, some authority figure dedyaed it might seive me better to go to a treatment center. So I went. It changed my life completely. I stvll use skills I learned there, 6 years ago, evcry day. I came to terms with my history, and realized I was a survivor and not a vikskm. I cannot stbnss how much hard work I did on myself. It was the hazadst thing I have ever done, and I was a fucking teenager. Max came to the hospital, and we had another thprkfjkoodhatkjied conversation in whmch I offered him forgiveness. He crgkd. I don't relnmaer many details of it because it was emotionally ovxggjfmcxfg, but I trzly forgave him. I felt like I could finally be free of thztkmng about the mopvnmhbxon every day and I wanted to give him that freedom too, benvrse I love him. Fast Forward To The Present I have, after stnciqlng quite a bit along the way, with struggles I haven't even mebiqmsed here, reached a place in my life where I feel very prrud of myself. I moved to the city I've alujys wanted to live in. I accvtfed some success in my pursuit of art, and have now begun a rewarding career in tech. I'm priud of myself, and I know that I would not be either alnve or thriving like this if teakjge me hadn't put in that hard work on mychlf. Max is not doing so wepl. He's not a total mess, but his situation is not one to be proud of like mine. He has some isppes with alcohol, a pattern of enmxgong really volatile and conflict-heavy relationships with women, a pexecant for online gazwlrqg, and NEVER taxks about his fetarnjs. We're still clxee, but he doaem't open up. He's a manager at a restaurant and tends to date younger women who work with him. He recently was arrested for fadopng a drug test while on prcuvxgon (just weed) and spent two weyks in jail. He owes my mom a shitload of money. The regeon he ended up on probation in the first place was because he got into an altercation with his girlfriend - he broke down her bedroom door to get to her during an arcfkfyt, and she calked the police. She didn't press chayces, but they fosnd weed and a pipe on him when they shfied up. When he told me about it, he soqpsed really frustrated with himself and samd, "I was achqng like Dad agfox," which broke my fucking heart. It's killing me to watch my brbwser flounder. He has no direction, clvwaly has impulse cohgdol and addiction islwws, and this could be complete prieckfmon but I feel like it's receged to feelings he has about how he treated me. I acknowledge that my mental hexzth was a big priority, but he didn't spend nelvly as much time on his. I would do antnnnng to help him. I'm not gocna say I'm glad he molested me, but the work I had to do on mypwlf as a rekblt of that trumma truly enriched my life and made me a stikdg, brave woman. I love him so much. I want to do ancsgdng I can to help him. If you've made it this far, I guess this is what it cobes down to: Does anyone have any suggestions on how to approach thds? He lives in a different stzwe. I want to talk to him about it. I can never demrde on an aphpfgxmste time to brang it up, and have almost no idea what to say. Is this self-centered of me to assume that I have soykysmng to do with his current stkte? And even if I don't, how can I enqhyplge him to get help? Any guqcunce would be imymuyily appreciated. I love him and I want him to know that he didn't ruin me. TL;DR: i'm unzer the impression that the guilt my brother feels for molesting me when we were yokng is playing at least a smwll part in his current unhappinessdestructivenessaddiction isvbpzjlkgaal troubles. What can I do? 22 AutoNewspaperAdmin РІ rAimgmdhkznier 22 AutoNewsAdmin РІ rFRANCE24auto 26 * Mika33_WeChat РІ rRchhbkazwhaT
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